Stupid Celiac

Is this stupid celiac ever going to go away? It is 2:30am and I am up with stomach pain. Why in the heaven can’t I just finish this year in piece and health and good night sleep? I seldom hate people or things, but.. owww… how I hate this disease. Can I have my life back? I am so careful with what I eat. I don’t eat out. I cook and bake my own food. I read darn labels on every product. And still… I still some how get glutened. Why does it have to hurt so much? Why the hell this darn pain has to accompany me almost every day. Celiac-you are not welcome in my life. Just leave me alone, please.